Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Okay today I have said No. No I do not want that, and no I will not pay for them. I feel very sick. I feel very anxious. I also feel myself in a bit of panic wondering how will the other person react when they find out? I know this is irrational on one level but on another it fills me with incredible dread. I should be able to say no, to not incur a debt, without feeling as if I have done something really bad. It was difficult, but I dont want to carry this debt, so I had to tell the agent, no I dont want it. It all makes me feel awful, embarrassed and yet again compromised.